Just God Things Blog – THE STRUGGLE IS REAL

THE STRUGGLE IS REAL by Mary Parks

Okay, so it’s officially been a month since I have posted. I apologize, but life has been crazy these past couple of weeks. Between sorority recruitment, starting back school, and new relationships, I’ll admit I have really let my writing slip. I am hoping to start posting every other week, so please hold me accountable! So, I am sitting here on a Friday night asking God to give me something to say.
 
But in all honesty, my writing isn’t the only thing that I have been putting on the back burner. I went to lunch with one of my best friends today, and it occurred to me that I have been neglecting my time with Jesus. I just have been consumed with events and assignments, I have not been the Christian that I want and strive to be. I was explaining to her that it’s so weird because this summer I was doing so well with reading my Bible daily and journaling, but now I find it harder and harder to make the time. What’s worse is that I can tell when I have lacked my God time, but yet continue to do little about it.
 
Then she said, something along the lines of, “That’s life. Things are going to change, and you have to figure out a new way to connect with God that works with you.”
 
Well thank the Lord for friends that will tell you the truth, and point you back to the cross. God didn’t promise that this was not going to be easy. He didn’t say that we were never going to have hardships in our relationship with Him. But let’s be real: we are the one struggling, God’s love for us is perfect. He has never left our side. It is through us being human and living in this sinful world that separates us from His love. The busyness of life is nothing to joke about. Our world screams to us and tells us to keep going, but God is saying to come find peace and rest in him.
One of my professors this week said something that really stuck with me. “Once you know better, then you can do better.” So, here is a list of things that I (and maybe even you) that have been my roadblocks for the past couple of weeks.

 

  1. School
    Well you could easily sub this for a job. Right now being a student is my full time job, but I commit my time to going to school. When I am not in class, a lot of my free time is spent on assignments or studying. I am using this time to prepare me for the field that God has called me to join. Right now, I have been working in my own will, I have not been relying on the strength of God. This is when weakness starts to set in, and the burns out happen.
 
  1. Relationships
    I believe we all have friends and people we like to spend our time with. Especially since I have not seen a lot of my friends in a couple of months. I find myself scheduling lunch/dinner dates at least a couple times of week. I have also, as in very recently, started dating someone. I have been putting these physical relationships ahead of the one with my Savior. I have been leaning on the physical more than the supernatural. I am
 
  1. Zero Sleep
    I know that if I don’t do a devotion when I wake up, I am most likely not going to do it at all. I like to read books in the evening, but I am not going to do a full in-depth Bible study when my brain feels like it is going to fall out. My struggle right now is that I have all 8am classes, and it is starting to keep up with me. Thinking I have to wake up 30 minutes earlier than I already do makes me want to cry, but Isaiah 33:2 says, “Lord, be gracious to us; we long for you. Be our strength every morning, our salvation in our time of distress.”

 

  1. Commitments
    I have some pretty big commitments this semester. I am currently serving my sorority as Vice President of Philanthropic Services. I have a job to do, and I do not want to let people down. I get stressed out and I worry so much about letting people down. But, I need to realize that my main commitment is serving the one who laid his life down for me. That I have to be more committed to my walk with God than any other thing on this planet. Proverbs 16:3 says, “commit your work to the Lord, and your plans will be established.”

 

So, where does God fit in?
 
But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.” Matthew 6:33
 
The point is to assess the situation and adapt to it. When we are seeking him, everything else will fall into the place the way it was meant to. This was a lot about me and what I am dealing with right now. This was not an easy blog to write or post, because this is letting whoever has read this into my spiritual life. This is showing the world that I have weakness and that I struggle too. That is something I hardly like to admit to my friends, but I hope that through my being honest with you (and with God), you can be honest with yourself.

 

I challenge you to really look at your spiritual life. How often do you pray a day? What kind of music are you listening to? Where are you lacking God in your life, and how can you make Him the center? When do you read the Bible? What time of day do you work best? If you aren’t happy with the answers, make a change. God is not going anywhere; He is waiting on you to make the first move. It’s all about balance. With each phase of life, we have to find the balance for our relationship with the Lord the center of our life.